what is it?
Two years ago I was in a funk. The kind of funk that left me incredibly drained and unmotivated. The only thing I could manage to do was scroll mindlessly through Facebook until my eyeballs felt like they were going to fall out of my head. But then I saw a post, by my very creative, thoughtful, caring (former) co-worker Caroline. She was asking her friends if any of them wanted to make goals and visions to brighten their February because it's the month usually lacking spunk.
I was sold.
I (loosely) participated. I made some goals and followed through with a few of them. Throughout the month I watched her Fabuary Facebook group light up with hopeful hearts that were making a conscious effort to live intentionally. For 29 days (it was a leap year). They were thinking outside of the box, doing things for the first time, and picking up old hobbies that used to bring them joy. It was inspiring to see people living like this - even for a month.
This year my life is in much better shape than it was two years ago. One might actually say I'm "thriving." I just moved to a new country. I'm making friends. I'm coming out of my shell in a whole new way - trying things I've always been too afraid to do. I feel liberated. I'm taking my life into my own hands and pursuing things that I'm passionate about.
Fabuary is an opportunity to be intentional. For different people it means different things. For me - it means slow down. Lots of things are happening, changing, progressing in my life but this month I want to appreciate it all. I want to feel human.
I have been on the go a lot in the last couple years. Travel was a big reason for that. I move on from one city to the next and have to fit everything into my short five days. But I live here now. There's no rush. I can sit with hot tea, binge-watch Grace and Frankie for an entire day, and feel no obligation to do anything. I'm allowed because I give myself permission to do that.
This morning I rode a beach cruiser bike with a basket. This month I get to be the "girl on the bike with the basket." She gets to be calm, cool, collected, and centered. She's not worried about who is watching or who cares what she does. She does what she wants.